Death and Connection,,

I heard Zoo's friend committed suicide two days before. He is one of the alumni with her at a high school. Couple of years ago he made a proposal for her. It seemed to be long time to have the feeling about her because he said since he bumped into her. She politely turned down the proposal because she never have the same emotion like him and moreover she really wanted to keep the friendship with him. According to her, the friend was supposed not to get used to his life. He have been getting lots of stress about a wedding from his mother. Except for the fact, I thought he was so weak to be hard to strive to make a satisfying living referred to what she said about him. Finally things happened.

There was the weird thing. he sent the gifts to her before he died. she got the thing after hearing his death. Zoo was really shocked. The gifts were the warming gloves, the muffler for the winter and the letter. She couldn't open it up because she's so frustrated. I told her to read it and give it to her mother because it might be a note. His mother might be in real panic but she was afraid that she could read the letter, even she can't join the funeral with her alumni.
If I were her, if I get the letter, what should I do? what's my feeling?